Memoirs

Life is going on..

as it used to, but the spark is gone.

I remember things which am not supposed to..

you, your words, is all that is missing

erased out from my life as it never existed before.

try as hard as I can... 

I cant make them disappear

I feel its an inseparable part of me,

engrained in each and every core of my being.

Persuading my memory to move ahead in time and see better things in store 

trying.... I am trying.

Lost in Life

I am standing alone in a path so unknown,
Waiting to realise where I have to move on,
restless and tired of the people's snares...
I am lost in the forest of glares and questions
wanting to find an answer..
Confused , Yes I am..
Mislead not Mistaken
Hear me out, Show me the way,
For I am at No one's Mercy.
I need retribution from my own self,
Need to be pulled out.
Still lost am I???
in this crowd..

its been awhile

i try to forget, but still i remember
i try not to think, but still my mind wanders away..
to those untouched memories
tucked safely in a corner..

how i wish that i could erase those moments
of happiness
which brings tears to my eyes now..
and sadness all around me

how i wish i could stand stll
and let everything pass infront of my eyes

all the things are connected to one single thread
one line of thought
as if life never existed before this...

feels like yesterday when i laughed,
has it been really so long,
when the days slipped by ma hand,
when the sand slipped thru the hourglass....
now i stand on the edge,
of sanity and bein insane
gripping hold of thin air,
balancing in between life and death.
silent tears telling their story,
falling ever so softly,
always...

to know true happiness

to jus sing along in the breeze,
to smile and laugh,
to feel the beautiful nature...
is wat i call true haapiness.

to keep all troubles aside,
to enjoy all the lovely sights,
to hear the birds sing ..
is wat i call true happiness.

to listen to the raindrops falling,
to jus hum to urself a song,
to love someone more than u love anyone...
is wat i call true happiness.

whispers in dark

i was standing last nite on the stairs
lookin for the moon
hidden behind the clouds.
wind whisperin in ma ears
soft lil nothings from my lover

radiant in its beauty
the moon was shining in its glory
i thot
maybe i am happy
cos i can see the moon...
one day, someone had told me,
" the day u will be sad, the moon wont come out"

i smiled, thinkin about that day..
and about him..

nameless emotions

i wait to see your name on my cell phone,

my mind wanders around,

every knock,every soft sound made

makes me think about you.

my heart n head cramped with your thoughts

no space to be on ma own

living on your words n understanding

i feel miserable now

my own doin , is tis, i know

but am so helpless now

takin the first step to knowin wat wil be my own destruction

gotta move ahead now... dont i???

why?? is the question, which hits me again n again

did i myself let this happen??

to feel the time being happiness?

to feel the solace of your company?

not knowin that it wont last for long

the foolish angel, aint i??

dreamin of paradise,

when every moment awakei am living in a true hell..